I can relate and have nightmares almost every night. I don't know what advice to give you about that, but....

I don't have insurance and make very little until the end of August. I called my county board of mental health and they referred me to Nurse Practitioner of Psychiatry, who charges far less than a p-doc. Maybe you should give your county a call because it's free and they are there to help! You can also try the NAMI in your county.

I saw you posted where you are from in your profile and found this for you:
http://www.accesskent.com/Health/
http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Sec...HL=no&state=MI