I left my session today not knowing what is right or wrong, up or down, left or right. I keep telling T I just want to feel better and she keeps telling me that she knows I do. Sometimes I feel like I am reaching for something that just isn't there. I thought after 16 months of consistant therapy with my great T that I would have a tool to be able to better navigate through things. Where is the end? Will I just wake up one morning and feel better? Will I just be able to suddenly leave the childhood trauma in the past where it shoud be? So I can start living in the present?

I'm starting to feel like I am never going to get the inner peace I've been striving for. I'm just..... lost......

Can I have a hug?