First, ((((((hug))))))

Therapy can be a very slow process. But when you're at a point you feel like maybe you're "spinning your wheels" and feeling lost, it's time to talk about it. It's nice that T validates feeling like you need and want to feel better, but really there needs to be some work on 'filling your tool box' with ways to manage between sessions and move through things.

I don't think that one really 'wakes up' and things just, BAM, change. Or that all the sudden, POOF, childhood trauma resloved. It's a process. Sometimes, a very slow one, a very patient one, a very trying one. It's an everyday, every session effort for now.

Again, It really sounds like there needs to be a conversation with T about feeling like we've lost the gravity beneath us, and we need some grounding and direction.

Good luck to you. Hugs. Hugs. Hugs.