Candy, you are reacting exactly how I would in your situation! All that pressure from everyone is sure to really affect your mental health (IMO).

Please try to keep yourself busy. I know that's hard, especially when you have a medical condition and all. I always clean or keep my hands and mind busy doing something other than self-harming. I don't want anything to happen to you.

We all love and care for you!

Hang in there and stay safe!