Wow, who, you've had one heck of a summer so far...maybe the meds need some time to kick in? Good choice to put yourself in the hospital when you did. Has anyone mentioned a mood stabilizer? Don't know what to say, but welcome and I'm sure you'll find that lots of us have experienced just what you have.

I have sacrificed having a wide range of emotions for stability. I know I'm not feeling as deeply as I used to, but the downside of that was I couldn't recognize mania. Now I can trust myself to not go off the deep end, and it's worth it to me. I'm so tired of the swings that all I want is to be stable.

((((((whoami))))))