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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
Thank you so much, everyone, for your incredible support.
Even though I'm in this ugly, dark place, I think my body is somehow trying to work its way towards health....as I thought of something important to me today, reached out to get what I needed and have decided to do something about it once I get some sleep tonight.
*** WARNING: Sad story to follow ***
My dad passed away 4 years ago, in front of my then 5 year old daughter and my mom, less than an hour after visiting my daughter's school for grandparent visitation day. My dad always loved to take lots of pictures and had a 35mm camera that he took pictures with that day. No one in the family - including myself - has had the heart to finish that roll of film and get it developed, to see the final pictures that he took which, of course, include my daughter.
Now, 4 years later, I contacted my mom to get a hold of the camera and am taking it to a camera shop first thing to see if the roll of film can be developed.
I am SO sad and SO anxious to take this step....I haven't really accepted the fact that my dad is truly gone and haven't fully grieved his death. I love him dearly. I also have a lot of "unfinished business" when it comes to the physical and emotional abuse from my parents which I still tend to blame myself for.
I am hoping this endeavor will be a step towards progress....Wish me luck.

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Good Luck MUE.....Its great that you have found a "way" to grieve the loss of your dad. It sounds like taking this step in and of itself is so much more important than what pictures will be on the roll of film....
from experience, I know a "walk down memory lane" can be taxing....be kind to yourself in the process.








