all these warnings are going off in my head.what my T calls the color red talking. i am so just spinning out of conrtole over yesterdays session.my head is screaming to quit to not trust her at all.saying she hates me so bad,she wants me to quit,she doesnt believe anything that is comming out of my mouth,she is angry.she will never help me,i am beyond help,dont deserve it and T knows this,next weeks session will be worse.etc....and on and on horrable thing after another.

she told me not to call her to quit over the phone but i dont know what to do i dont want to go next week im scared and i want to call her and let her know how bad things are .i want her to tell me it will be ok but i know she wont.i have never called her exsept to quit T that once.i dont know what she would do if i called her just to tell her how scared i am to come back is it a huge boundry i am crossing.i couldnt handle it if she told me never to call her it would be such a rejection or if she was so cold and uncaring about how i feel.i just want her to know how bad i am feeling.i dont know what to do.i dont even know if she would return a call for this reason.she did call me back when i asked her if i could come back and see her.