When I've been very poorly I've been sure I've been targetted by supernatural beings. Sometimes it was angels and demons, sometimes it was ghosts, there was a period when I was at university that it was aliens, and from childhood early teens to about nineteen or so I believed it was the Sidhe (that's the scary version of faeries in Ireland.) Sometimes I kept these fears well under wraps, other times they overwhelmed me and affected my ability to cope in the world.

I also suffer from extreme mood swings, general paranoia (officialdom or neighbours always seem out to get me) and often (even now that I'm on medication) I think that my phone is bugged, or I'm being persude by people in vehicles (landrovers and emergency vehicles... it's to do with a place I used to work.) I still see things that aren't there, though not so frequently, and hear things that nobody else does.

I think it's basically a form of schizophrenia with a mood disorder thrown in, either major depression or bipolar. As well as the symptoms I've described above I've had deep depressions, and mood swings, sometimes euphoria, sometimes what they call a "mixed state", when I'm thinking fast and working hard, not eating much, not sleeping much, but with a great deal of anxiety and aggression bubbling away. In these states I often get extremely paranoid.