(((((((granite)))))))

Maybe I'm wrong but calling your T to say "I feel so bad after the session; please help me" or something like that is different from calling to quit. Most Ts would allow a call like that, and would be compassionate. It's when you don't communicate with your T through words that she objects. If you honestly TELL her how you feel, that's what she wants. You can write it down so you don't panic when you call.

Honestly, that's what Ts are for. TELL her you're scared to come back. It's her job to hear you and to respond to you about it.