granite, if you tell your T what is in your heart, what you are posting, then she will repond the same way. Please trust her! Tell her you're scared but need to know it's okay to come back. The worst thing won't happen if you tell her how you really feel. But you have to use words and be honest. She doesn't hate you; she wants to help, but you have to tell her what you feel. Ts are not mind readers, though I wish they were!