Ya know, I was okay with being vulnerable with my T, I realized last November that it had happened, and that I finally trusted her and felt safe being vulnerable. The difference now, is that my T pointed it out!!! How stupid is that? I mean, I'm sure she noticed it when I started opening up more, allowing myself to show more emotion, and it's been months since that happened, she just never said anything about it. It's her saying something about it now, confirming that I have made my self more vulnerable and dependant on her that's driving me to distraction. Like, as long as neither of us commented on the change, it wasn't real. But now that she's pointed it out and I've been made to acknowledge it, it's real and it's upsetting me.