(((((Tree))))) I know how hard it is to let a beloved pet go and I'm so sorry you are struggling with this right now.

I know what you mean about the person you are in therapy vs. the person you are in real life. I sometimes wish that my T could see me interact with people outside of T, but then I realized she'd see right through the mask I show the world and it wouldn't matter anyway. She'd see that underneath that calm confidence, I'm still anxious and terrified...I just hide it well when interacting with other.