A good friend of mine who was dumped out of a mental hospital and put onto the streets for many years and there went through trauma after trauma, said that the only way she survived was to learn to stay in the now. Depression is all about identifying with our thoughts. In The Power of Now (Eckardt Tolle) it explains that if instead of identifying with our barrage of thoughts, instead of thinking they are us- We must simply observe our thoughts and feelings from that part of us that is deep inside. This helps us to experience our inner being, where there is no illness, no pain and no depression. It is the part of us that just IS. I have been trying to practice doing this. It isn't easy, it takes some real discipline and practice, and is a process. But compared to waiting for antidepressants to work, it is immensely faster. Perhaps you aren't in a place now where you can do this kind of work, and I think that the ER sounds like a good idea right now as well. When I have been so depressed, I have to remind myself every moment, that it is the pain I want to stop, not life. Bless you. Take care of your heart right now.
-Ariel


-Ariel

Whatever you can do,
Or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic, in it.
-Goethe