I've always panicked when my T (any of them) call me even when I'm expecting the call. For me, it's fear, anxiety, and expectations. I'm afraid I'll feel worse after the call. I'm afraid I won't know what to say. I'm afraid I'll be disappointed. I'm just plain scared!!

When it's close to therapy day, I'm really anxious about calls or emails because that would mean T has to cancel me.

Maybe you're so anxious because you're not used to talking with her on the phone?

I think it's part of the whole vulnerability issues in therapy. We have a lot at stake; our Ts don't. We're the ones who sweat and panic before sessions. They don't. Before every single session I get super anxious even though I'm not afraid of my T at all.