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I understand where you are coming from.

I am very glad to hear that you are feeling pride and some excitement about your art accomplishments. You should be proud! That's a wonderful thing ~ I'd love to see the prints of your work. Being work, I would assume that sometimes stress goes along with your art.

There are other stress relievers to get through those very dark times. DBT provided me with a lot of things to refer others to try. My personal favorite to help me through horrible times is nature. Watching the clouds in the sky, listening to the birds chirp and cackle, feeling the sensation of fresh air on my skin (or imagining the feeling), closely inspecting objects of nature (like rocks, leaves, etc). These things bring a sense of peace to me. In that moment ~ it calms me down, and puts me back into a better state of mind.

If nature isn't your thing, perhaps music, scents, or taste are worth a shot for you. The list of possibilities is endless! I do wish you the best.