When I started therapy I told my T that it would be impossible for me to tell the truth. What is truth anyway? I would bring my own biases. I would remember things incorrectly or filtered through my issues. I would forget some key parts of any incident. I would exaggerate or I would minimize. There is no way I would really be able to tell her the truth.

But, I see now that that is not so important. My issues are being worked out in the here and now with T. She can see what's going on and I don't have to rely on my memories or my distorted interpretations of events.

And about RL, it's our feelings that matter. If we lie about our feelings to T, then we only delay our progress in therapy. But sometimes we can't help but 'lie' because we've lied to ourselves so long we don't even recognize it as a lie.

Yep, it's a slow process.