Hi Sarah. I'm glad you came back; you were on my mind often today.

Yes, some idiots did say ignorant things to me about my Mom going to hell because of the suicide and I thought it was very UNChristian of them to say such a thing to me, especially right after her death, (although there is never a good time to hear those remarks). I don't believe God will turn his back on either of our Mothers...

I obsessed often about my Mom and the 'last moments' and her being alone in the act as well. Whereas, before she died I had a hard time even hugging her, afterwards, I found myself arms and face down in the exact spot right after, and found it comforting.

I still think of that part sometimes, (it's been almost 8 years now), but, honestly, at the time, I would have tried to stop her so she really had no choice but to be alone. I have since been with two dear friends as they died, (so-called 'natural' deaths), but I doubt that I could have 'been there' with her still.

I'm being really candid with you here; I hope that's OK. I know when I asked/had these questions, I wanted straight answers.

Keeping you in thought. Warmest regards, Peanut

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