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Originally Posted by nicoleb2
I am having so much cutting urges, it is what i think about all day long. I have suicidal thoughts too. I sprained my ankle a week or so ago so I have way too much time to just sit and think.
The thoughts are based on the fact that I'm never going to get better (i am on the last possible med for depression according to my pdoc)
I should be able to control these urges by now
I am always going to be dealing with this, and I'm not sure i can muster up the energy needed for it.
So how do I stop theses thoughts?
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As for being on the last med....get a new pdoc. I asked my pdoc, after 25 years of being sick and 20 years being on meds if I didn't sort of run out of pills to try. Was it hopeless? He told me no, it was not hopeless. That there a so many permutations and combinations of meds possible, that it would be hard to run out. He didn't think a person could, there were that many. He said it might be hard to find the right combination and even that someof the meds I tried in the past and didn't work, may work now with other, newer, different meds. So please don't lose hope. Find the pdoc that comes at this with a "We can do anything together and I will help you with all my knowledge, skill, and compassion. It WILL get better." You deserve at least that.
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I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost