Ok i'm not sure if this has to do with my bipolar or my other mental issues or if its even related to that at all. I just woke up from having rapid cycling nightmares if that makes sense. I had only laid down 30 minutes prior to waking up in fear. This happened to me a week ago as well. All the nightmares have to do with way i fear to die i guess would be the best way to describe it. Every nightmare tonight string as well as last weeks electricity fail and anything electronic didn't work at all. Sometime there is a guy a big guy that is trying to kill me. Other times it like i'm fighting this supernatural being. About a year ago when i was living with my dad and my girlfriend at the time was gone visiting with family i had a nightmare that this super natural spirit came flying at me and once it hit me i woke up but i felt pressed into my bed and i had to make a huge effort just to get out of bed. So i think that could be where the me fighting the supernatural being is coming from. Then i had one tonight where my cat bit my knuckle and wouldn't let go. When i wake up i don't only fear for my life but i also fear that someone is in my house with me and i just don't know it but i also fear going back to sleep. The thought of going back to sleep just makes me want to cry. I currently have a headache and did before i went to bed but now it seems to be strongest in my neck. I know i can't go through this every week especially at the beginning of the week. When i'm this fearful and my dog growls i get freaked out especially tonight right now i'm really just overly scared and i honestly don't know what to do cause i don't like to go to bed because i always have this fear in the back of my mind someone is going to break in and kill me in my sleep. Not sleeping for the rest of my life isn't an option but i am at a complete loss at this point i actually seem to be at a complete loss in most aspects of my life right now. if anyone knows anything and can offer some advice i would greatly appreciate it. But if i have someone else at my house staying the night then i'm fine and can sleep just fine without anxiety locking my doors actually gives me peace of mind when someone is over but when i'm alone it doesn't give me any kind of peace of mind at all. I currently feel that that guy from my nightmare is standing behind me waiting for the right moment and reading this as i type it but i know he isn't there with how many times i have turned around to check. I'm so scared right now that i went into my kitchen and got my biggest knife since that is the only kind of protection i have in my house for myself. Analyzing this myself i know that there is something really wrong with me mentally and i think that i'm crazy especially right now. I honestly don't know if i will be able to go back to sleep tonight these nightmares were worse than last weeks if anyone has any advice i would love to hear it