Hello this is my first time posting, I'm sort of a shy person but I thought I'd try this out. I'm 19 years old and I'm going to school. I have always shown myself as the person without a care in the world, I just always figured that what I'm feeling is nothing special, that everyone goes to sleep hoping that maybe they won't wake up in the morning or crying themselves to sleep as quietly as they can so no one can hear. I just feel like I'm a big dissappointment to everyone, I'm not good enough. I try as hard as I can at stuff but I always fail, then everyone makes fun of me. Around my friends and family it's like a crime to be sad so I have to pretend I'm happy, I can't talk to anyone about anything. Sometimes I'd like to give up and I wonder who would miss me anyway, I hate thinking that but it's hard not to. I try and just be a good friend to everyone so I'll try and do that here. I hope here I can just talk I promise I won't whine a lot.