rightly said @ stronger man. you know when u have these thoughts in your head and cant really put them into right words, then somebody just does that ! well thats the feeling got when i read your response.thanks for putting it in perspective.
push and pull it was, right from day one!
you know the first step he took towards completely isolating me from the world was to tell me that i was the only one in the world who could understand him and to promise him that i would never leave him mentally, physically and even in my thoughts! and even i at that time, gobbled up the pull for the love i wanted to see in him so desperately. i allowed one show of consideration to iron out all the painful scars he made on my mind time and time again. but no more. you know i decided to finally quit when he started cribbing when i had to go for a radiological examination(x-ray) to confirm against a possible malignancy. he cribbed about having to spend money, having to wait( when i told him i could leave), and after the favourable diagnosis he cribbed about all the tension he had to take having to deal with my 'unfound' fears of cancer. i knew that a partner should never behave like how he did and was only a preview of the support i would get in my future during moments of real life crisis. when he knew that i supported him unconditionally during everyone of his mild asthmatic and gastritis attacks by staying awake all night, upon his insistance brought him medicines, warm drinks and comforting word without any show of tiredness or unhappiness. luckily for me getting out this late was made easier by the fact that we never had kids. i believe god was on my side!!;-)
thanks again!