There was an odd shift on my perspective of life the beginning of this week.

I don't know what happened and I'm not sure I like it or not yet.

I feel like I have more knowledge about some things and in chat I feel more comfortable talking and giving advice to others. I try to help everyone I can. Tonight, after I'd listened and tried to help with everyone else's venting and whatnot, they sort of all turned and told me to talk about my stuff. I told them I was fine. They didn't believe me, but opening up is not my favorite thing in the world. It's much easier to open up in the forums than in chat...

Another weird thing with this new view of life... I finally see how silly my dreams are. They feel so ridiculous. I think I've finally given up. No more fantasy rockstar dreams for me. It just feels like I finally see where everyone else is coming from when they say it's not realistic.

Even my friend says I seem different. I'm not really sure what happened to make me change like this.