my T wants to know what i am saying to myself.the part of me that doesn't allow me to talk.so i thought i would work on a list this week just about the things that sent me into this huge panic .what was i saying to myself?

i see you are so frustrated with me,why do i do this over and over again.

i know your just going to end up hating me, just look at Ware this is all going.

i should have just left.see this is how i end up so miserable.

i could really get hurt by you.

i don't think i can ever trust you.way to risky.so many horrible things people can do with trust.they can take it turn it against you in ways that can leave you feeling so small and broken that you could never recover.why wouldn't you do that?especially if you are angry and frustrated.and i have a special talent of being real good at making people feel this way.

talking to you put things out there that cant be taken away or hidden.that is never good and i end out feeling even more miserable.

you wouldn't believe anything i say anyway.it is just all stupid.

to be continued...