Christie, I think that a most of us here have experienced the feelings that are bothering you right now. I'm sorry that your anxiety and depression are causing you so much difficulty. (Glad to hear that your mom is o.k., though!)

I think that you need to put your two dates with that guy in perspective. It was only two dates, and you found out on the second date that he's not the kind of guy that you would want to date again. Is that correct?
If so, then you should try to erase him from your thoughts altogether.

I agree with you that you really do need to begin seeing a t again. Have you tried looking into a mental health clinic that charges on a sliding scale, based on your income? If not, I would recommend that you do that. Since you have no income right now, the therapy would most likely be little or nothing. Also, you may want to consult with a free credit counseling service to alleviate your anxiety about your debts. It can't hurt to hear what they have to say.