I know that all the psychologists I have had before the one I have now really failed me.....but it wasn't to my advantage......I went on being oblivious to my emotions.....& even to my thoughts as they would pass through my mind without really recognizing them, acknowledging what they even were........with the psychologist I have now along with the DBT group that I'm going to, I realize that I did have skills, but didn't know what they were & also am learning new skills. Some work for me & some don't.....but at least now I know what skills are available & can pick & choose what I need to apply when I'm in a bad situation. I love being able to sit down with my psychologist & logically talk through my emotions......emotions that I wasn't willing to even acknowledge existed. The sad thing I look at the T's that failed in accomplishing this with me that it was really a waste of over 10 years & going through some heavy trauma while being with them with NO HELP. Where I would have been if I was where I am now during those trauma's would have been like night & day.

I am thankful that I finally have been able to find the right therapy....long after I really was needing it......can't really even go back & analyze where I was at that point because the emotions have long since passed & don't want to go back & find them again.

There are many things that our mind isn't even in tune with & we don't understand unless we have outside assistance in pointing it out because it's become so much a part of us that we don't recognize it as anything in need of recognizing & we go on oblivious to the things that are really hurting us.......Whether it's a T, or another counselor, outside observation & their pointing out the things that are just a natural state that continues to hurt us is not a Do It Yourself sort of thing......we need to be an active part of it......but there is just too much of ourselves that we can't recognize without others pointing it out & working with us to HELP US FIND OUT SOLUTION.