my T has made the following observations regarding my physical appearance:

(1) if i'm feeling reserved/not open on a given day, i'm more likely to wear my glasses and "hide." he says i have very expressive eyes (in that i reveal emotions/thoughts/feelings more so than i might hope to), which i have heard from other people, too. i try to wear my contacts for therapy, because then i have one less thing to hide behind. if i do wear my glasses, sometimes i'll joke to him that he'll have to work extra hard to "read" me or that i'll try to be more explicit in owning and verbalizing my emotions and thoughts. in general, he'll comment on a "certain look" or a "change in my eye when i was talking about x,y,z" or.... all things based on expressions, usually when he knows something's up but i'm skirting the issue or abnegating my own feelings.

(2) if i'm coming from/heading to work or volunteering, i'll usually be dressed up, but since this is not often the case, if i am dressed up, he'll comment on it in a "you're dressed up today. interview? meeting?" kinda way. since otherwise i'll have jeans/pilates pants, sweatshirt, etc. on, i suppose it is an obvious change. i hear it as "oh you look nice today" and maybe, implying that i don't look nice other days? but i think he senses my unease about such comments, as he's done it less the last few months. come to think of it, i was pretty dressed up yesterday and he didn't say a word.

(3) as for my overall appearance, i have no idea if he thinks i'm pretty or homely. i think the male T, female P (hehe for patient) dynamic can be tricky at times, and i imagine that he may consciously refrain from such topics.

learning, he recommended next top model?!?!?!?!!

i'm.... speechless. literally, if you could see me, my jaw just dropped and i mouthed "what!" to the computer screen. i just.... wow. i don't know how to diplomatically react to that, so i'm going to say, learning, i'm so glad you're here and sharing with us. your honesty, vulnerability, and spunk are refreshing and lovely