Thank you for all of the warm and loving responses everyone, I really appreciate it! I know a lot of it is self preservation and just guilt in general. I know it's not my fault and he's just sick, but man... it can really get to you sometimes! I know logically that I'm not a bad daughter... just a hurt one. I've never thought of going to any groups for those with alcoholic parents, talking about my dad is the hardest thing for me to do; I can talk about anything but that! I'll look into it though. Once again, thank you all for the support!