Elana5,

Mine is gone on vacation too -- so we're in this boat together! Like you, when my t goes away, at first i feel fine, for maybe a week or so. . .but then my strong resolve starts to give way. . .and i begin missing her alot. What helps me best is reminding myself of times when she has said and done things that show she cares -- reliving them in my mind -- so that i can hang onto a sense of our relationship being real and continuing, even when we are not physically together. The other thing that helps me when my t is gone is keeping myself very busy so i don't dwell on the fact that she is gone. Maybe you could try those things and see if it helps at all. . .I understand though. . .it's hard. But before you know it, she'll be back.