Dear T,

I know that I have been talking about one particular issue for the past year. I just cannot seem to find any resolution to this hurt. When people in your past betray, reject, and abandon you without any warning or reason that you know of, it changes who you are.

I know that you want me to be free from this pain, but I don't know how to let this go. Believe me, I want to! I have been hurting about this for 14 years. I know that this is childish drama and I need to grow up and get over this.

Maybe we can stop talking about it. I don't mean just put it on the back burner for awhile like you suggested. I mean let this go forever. Just accept that it happened, it hurt me, I will never understand why she did what she did, and learn to deal with the hurt better than I have been.

If you see me start to cry in our session, will you please just redirect me to another topic? Don't let me sit there and process those emotions. They can't be processed it. They need to be ignored because nothing that you or I do is going to make this any better.

You know that this particular situation hurts me more than anything else that has happened to me in my life. I know that you think I need to keep working through this, but I don't want to. It does no good anymore. I hate this person for what she did and I cannot forgive her at this time. I know that you tell me I need to forgive her so that I can be free from the pain.

I don't know how to forgive her.

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