I don't have any credit cards. I always use cash for everything, I am a bit old fashioned that way. I am on disability so I don't have a lot to spare either, and "normal" me is quite frugal.

As for the ED part, well overall I am not an unhappy person. I am unhappy with the bipolar. So to me it seems less like true unhappiness and more so illness. When I am in normal mode, I am good. People always tell me how positive I am.

The anorexia isn't very text book with me. I started at 5 for control, it's always been more about control than body image. I go through periods where I do very well for a long time, and periods where I do poorly. It's been a coping skill for many years, so I think it might be a bit different for me, I have an ok self esteem, body image isn't too bad. When I am stressed and everything seems out of control I starve and it can be hard to get back on track, like an addiction.