such a bad night. . . finally slept a few hours and the nightmares were terrifying. then this morning i woke up to such a serious smack in the face. this person who exited my life recently texts me a message that makes no sense and i respond what are you talking about and i get this message back, oops that wasnt meant for you. i feel ill. literally. just another youre meaningless i dont want you youre worthless and they actually texted "youre still among the living?" like they were hoping i wouldnt be. people are so cruel and i am so angry right now i want to cut myself to shreds to shut my brain off. sorry for the early morning venting. husband has a court date this friday for his license suspension, i need to get him a lawyer and tonight i return to my evil crappy miserable job. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! i have a bruise on my face this morning and dont even remember how i got it. i'm so seriously losing my mind.