jb, I do feel a warm, fuzzy feeling about my T because she likes me and doesn't hesitate to tell me that, and I believe her. But, that makes it hard when I find out she's taking a week off, like I did last night when she emailed me. It's not like a friend going on vacation. It hits me much more and makes me cry.

Indie, I felt a little hurt when she wouldn't say she loves me. I know other people's Ts will tell them that. I don't think it's because of her policy, either. She said it wouldn't be genuine, which means she doesn't love me. Then why do I love her? I don't want to love her. I don't know what I mean when I say "love" anyway. It's so confusing!!

granite, I feel touched, I guess, that my T would offer a lower price. I think she once said she wasn't in this for the money. I know she has a H who has a good career and probably earns enough to support them. Just assuming. It's a second career for her, and part-time. She's a nice person. Truly and genuinely caring and compassionate. I also think it means she thinks we really need the help and she feels bad that I am unhappy in my marriage.

Sannah, thanks! Yeah, I was kind of proud of myself too! I just wish I didn't have all these feelings for my T, though. But I feel like I'm finally working on resolving them the best I can. Accepting them, discussing them, talking about my H and how helping our relationship can help need my T less, etc. It hurts my heart, though.