so ok -- this is what my t keeps telling me.... great.... its really just that easy? darn it, why didnt I think of that (please read with a dripping amount of sarcasm)

i dont think she believes i want to change - which is very unfair -- we just started therapy (she keeps bringing change up and asking me if i would try to change -- i guess my efforts have not been good enough for her)

i know (cause i asked) that she thinks im borderline and now since that conversation it seems like she cant relate to me

she keeps telling me how other people feel and asking me what i think my fiance is feeling -- as if i could possibly speak for him

i went to a baseball game -- she kept pumping me about it -- so i let her know how horrible uncomfortable i was -- how my anxiety made me sick -- her response was that she was glad i went and that other people there were probably anxious as well.

and after i had paid and made my next appt she starts in wanting to know how the thoughts are, am i safe, and tells me that the accident took a toll on me but not to let it have that much power over me and i just imploded -- as if i havent fought almost every single day since the accident to try and get my life back and not let it have a hold on me --

i just dont know what to do anymore