thanks dizgirl --

i had written out my history and let her read it cause i was too ashamed to tell her and she was very supportive and i left the session feeling lighter than i had in years...but then i started second guessing other things that had happened in the session and i texted her my concerns -- several times -- and i never heard back from her and i shut down (which unfortunately is my default position) and our sessions have never been the same since.

unfortunately my accident happened several years ago -- at work -- and it caused an avalanche of events -- i really do wish i could pry its grip from around my heart.