Thank you so very much for your understanding and your caring!

I have only reliased last fall, maybe last october, how much it has affected me. When I think of all this it affects me in so many ways. I know if I would come face to face now with something dangerous or bad, I wouldn't have anyone to count on or maybe I wouldn't let myself trust enough to turn to someone. I don't know what I would do. Deep inside I feel I can only count on myself. I would probably face it alone. A big world with so many people and I feel I can't give really my trust to anyone. What I mean by this is not that I think that people are bad but maybe I have been hurt to deep this time, much too deep.

I am probably just talking to myself right now so I can better understand how I feel and come to an end and move on. I will try anyway.

Again thank you!