Whoooo ah!!!

From the extreme panic/anxiety I felt this time last week to today is like day and night. I went from a hysterically crying, rocking back and forth on the floor woman last week to a woman who did what DaveyJones said in one of his recent threads: I held my head high, threw my shoulders back and walked in like I owned the place.

I am totally convinced that being actively treated for anxiety will make a HUGE difference in my life!

So, I went into cubicle-land. A few of my co-workers saw me before I made it to my supervisor's desk, so we hugged and greeted. As I was told by a co-worker that kept me "updated" monthly - lots and lots of new faces. I'll try to deal with remembering them as time goes on...lol.

I was absolutly amazed my desk was just as I left it (including unfinished work ) There has been new shifting around of desks so I figured I would be in the "outback" someplace. That made me happy. So everything was as I remembered it. There was a gift and some cards on my desk which I brought home but haven't opened yet.

Made it over to my (young) supervisor and talked to him for a few. He was verrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyy kind and understanding almost walking on eggshells. He was who I was dreading since he knows my illness when he didn't have to (but I didn't know that).

I did basic file copying today. Suited me fine. No dealing with the forms, triage, or anything else...just copying files. Very calm.

Thank you all who encouraged me, offered suggestions, warm thoughts, vibes, prayers...anything. I'm easing back into the work world and when it is time, will begin a new adventure elsewhere!