Jessica,

This is not your fault. None of it is, alright? Don't feel lousy because your friends grew up in different family situations and households. I feel a lot of empathy for you, as I can relate in some ways. I'm fourteen too, so I know all about the angst and self esteem problems that come along with the society we're thrust into. We are all very supportive on this site, so you can always lean on us if you really need to talk. Also if you have any family members or friends in real life you could talk to that would be great. Verbally venting is soo relieving at times. Maybe when the school year starts up you can speak to the school counselor. As far as I know, they are free. I hope your mother gets well again, and I know things for you will get better

Siljie