One good thing about you is that you are seeking out other people who are struggling too. You recognize that you need support and help and you are giving it to yourself. It takes a lot of strength to go through therapy and to join a support forum and put yourself out there for strangers to read about. The only failure in therapy is giving up. As long as you keep working at it, keep putting in as much as you can give, and working as hard as you can with wherever you are at, then you are succeeding. There are no grades, it's there for you, you get to make it into whatever you need it to be so you can heal.