kaliope i know how u feel 2 years ago i signed myself into a mental ward they pulled my files and saw i had been in counselling since high school (8 years ago) they diagnosed me with 4 or 5 different problems and got a caseworker to help me apply for disability for the last year i have been receiving payments i dont have a job cant find 1 in my area to begin with and cant work with or around people 7 months ago i moved in back at home with my mom so i dont even have to go food shopping anymore i spend almost every hour of every day locked inside my room i am very lonely and yearn for companionship but i can barely even leave my room yet alone my house im not close to any of my family and i have no friends i havent had a girlfreind in 3 years i hate myself and i have no self esteem