I was diagnosed with Bipolar two weeks ago after I went to the hospital for Mania, it's been an insane two weeks, with me trying to mend my family, friendships and make amends all while undergoing treatment.
All of this done, and nothing to really show, I feel like my family only cares about material things like a Job and College, even though I HAVE a job and I'm planning on going to college, it's not enough, it's not enough that I'm making social interactions and trying to enjoy life a little bit. No, they always have to see the negatives and drill them home, in fact they seem to see social interaction as bad, and even though I'm only 19, and I've taken up so much responsibility in the last month, the only thing they can focus on is little things, for example that I didn't mow the lawn right when asked, in fact screaming it in my face even when I cooked and cleaned. I feel emotionally drained whenever I'm around them, they have so many marital issues and I've had to deal as their sandbag for so long, that wasn't easy, but there's so many scars.
I know this is without much direction, but I'm just so hurt, I try so hard to make them happy, but they never seem to care, I know I can't fix their relationship, but the fact that they seem to direct all the negativity onto me is just hard to deal with, and while they can support me financially, they don't seem to get just how hard my life has been mentally.
I don't know what to do, thanks to anyone who responds.