<font color="#000088">This may be triggering so please becareful.


This morning I heard my roommate come in the door. I rolled over in bed and just wanted to hide. Things have been so stressful living here. She has borderline personality disorder as well as bi-polar disorder. She is very needy and demanding. Very self-centered. A week after we moved in here the end of November she took an overdose of pills. Well this morning I was getting a phone call from her mom. I ignored the phone call. Just let the voicemail picking it up. I thought she was trying to call her. She called again and I ignored it. Finally I checked the voicemail. Her mother said that she took an overdose. So I went into rescue mode and that I had to handle things the best I could. I contacted 911. Well she is in a coma right now. This is just added ontop of all the stress. I have been having major memories and trying to deal with it. Also dealing with alters that want to c*t and do self-harm. I am overwhelmed with so much going on in my life. Last week in group talked about the feeling of being a pressure cooker. Today the pressure cooker feels like it is going to explode. I'm tired of being strong and taking care of everyone else. I need help and support myself, but cannot get it. I feel so alone and that really people don't care. They just care about theirselves and what they need from me. This place that I am in is a very lonely and isolating place. I don't want to be here anymore in this place. It is so painful and awful. </font>