I can relate, more than I'd like to admit. Please talk to somebody, isolation is one of the worst things to do. I'm glad you are reaching out on this website - it's helpful to know you are not alone. Agoraphobia - fear of leaving your home - can be devastating, you have something very important going for you....Awareness. All of the members on this thread know what they are talking about - please take that first step of talking to a therapist or doctor. Hang in there!