before hand note: don't laugh please >o<

I like to dress in women's clothes, to both experiment and play with makeup in a way that is different to the norm, and I'm a guy. I just...I find make-up, cosmetics, loudboutins and females clothing has an art and elegence about it that I crave. Men are steriotypically supposed to juxtapose this, I'm supposed to juxtapose this, but I just can't.

I tend to look rather feminine in appearance, according to other people that I know, although I can't even be certain of this seeing my poor sense of judgement. You can see in my profile picture or in one of my blog links in my profile that even in my pictures I don't tend to come off as a guy.

To add to the issue; my sexuality in itself confuses me, for the most part i've just waywardly assumed I'm bisexual without even really "knowing." I do know that most of my attraction is towards guys of the same-sex and not towards females.

I can't understand my own way of thinking, and it frustrates me to no end, and even when talking about this i'm finding myself becoming flustered because...blahh i just don't know.

Is this normal? What does it mean? Any advice or anything of the sort at all would be much loved and I would be very very grateful <3