I feel as if the emotions I feel can't be coming from me. I feel like I have to hide my true feelings about life and the way I feel about it. My biggest fear is to be left alone, however my alone time is usually the best part of the day for me. I want to feel loved and im not sure if thats in actual emotion I'm psychically capable of feeling. These thoughts I have are so sporadic and spontaneous I lock them away in public and tend to stay to myself, it is only when I am alone that every true feeling comes and and it is confusing.