i know you guys are all right - i am desperately trying to fill a void. and i had so much hopes. also, i know i am way better than other girl he will ever meet and i wish he would realize that. perhaps, one day he will.

i did text him last night, not an apology but an "acknowledgment" that calling hims "disturbed and vindictive" was wrong.

and i feel alot better! i am the better more mature person now.