Welcome to psych central, talis. I'll respect your request to not discuss this much in public forums It would take quite a bit for someone in your real life to "stumble" upon this site. It is not searchable with search engines. So if you don't drop any hints irl, they won't know, imo.

I'm sorry that you received the "standard" reaction from family about seeking help. Please don't let that prevent you from self care now. IMO finding a psychiatrist/psychologist to keep secrets with is the best thing to find! TC