woundedhearts,

You have a lot of heavy stuff you're dealing with. I know it's hard but please try to be gentle with yourself. You are worth the self-care.

I understand about people overdosing and trying to save them and the dreaded "rescue mode." When you are in rescue mode you don't have time to process what has happened, but in the aftermath you swirl round and round trying to get grounded. Trying to catch your breath.

It is a frightening, helpless experience and I'm sorry you had to witness it.

You don't have to feel lonely here. There are a lot of caring souls at psychcentral to support you however we can.

Petunia