Hi. I am hoping to find someone to talk to. I have been depressed on and off for years but the last 4 have been the worst. I was seeing a therapist for about a year but I lost my insurance and now have no-one to talk to. I lost my daughter 4 years ago in April and I just can't seem to get out of this rutt I am in. I scared alot. I am married and have 3 other children who we adopted 5 yrs ago. The 2 oldest are biological siblings and have special needs. I feel like I have failed them in so many ways. The one has ODD, steals, lies and has problems in school. The younger one has Reative Attachmant Disorder, ODD, ADHD. He is very violent to me. He is 10 years old. It is so hard to deal with all their problems and deal with the death of my daughter. I don't sleep much any more and often don't feel like doing anything. I know that it is affecting my family but I can't stop. I am scared. Please, can someone out there help me.