Technically I am old enough, Sky, as the ops in question started in the early 60s and have presumably been going on since then. The thing is, I don't believe I was any part of those ops themselves. I just somehow wound up with a lot of the same programming. Maybe Satan was experimenting with some of the tech at random or something, or maybe it was just totally accidental and coincidental that certain "parallel" things happened to me that induced the same types of programs. I don't know.

At any rate I'm becoming extremely annoyed with myself for the level of obsession I'm experiencing with this material. This morning I had it fixed in my mind: that's it, I'm not going to keep obsessing over this. It doesn't mean anything, and I need to "forget the things which are behind" etc. that is, put the past behind me and move forward. Yet despite that resolve I STILL spent most of the day (in between assignments at work) slithering around the internet looking up more of this material.

It's disgusting, downright disgusting. It's "spiritual pornography" is what it is, if you know what I mean. And it just ticks me off all the stuff these people make up about the Illuminati and whatnot. They call anything they want to an "Illuminati" thing. They make up all this junk about rich people and call THAT the "Illuminati". It's bogus. I've been involved in REAL occult groups/organizations before. It just doesn't work that way and these conspiracy types show how totally ignorant they are when they start hodgpodging stuff together all willy-nilly and lumping it under "satanism" so glibly. The only thing that is SATANISM is SATANISM. Wicca is NOT Satanism, for example. Neither are the Druidic or Hermetic traditions. Neither is ceremonial magick. Granted, because of their beliefs in God people often think these things COME FROM Satan, but that is a totally different matter than having them be Satan-ISM.

OK I'm rambling and ranting, enough is enough. I'm just irked with myself for wasting yet another day on this tail-chasing nonsense.