My parents should have gotten a divorce when I was three. I am now about to be 24 and they are just now getting lawyers for what will probably be a nasty divorce. My dad used to yell at me a lot, nothing ever seemed good enough. I hated when he was home from business trips because I'd always end up locked in my room, crying. I did the best I could, and it never was good enough.

I didn't learn then how to deal with it, it just contributed to my disorder. I spent as much time away from home as possible, and kept telling myself that when I could afford it, I'd move out. It may be that your parents don't know how to handle your diagnosis, or they may recognize the symptoms in themselves and wonder if maybe they have it, too. That thought might scare them even more, causing them to lash out in fear. It sounds like they have a rocky relationship with each other, and are both unhappy. People who are unhappy like to spread it around, and the best thing you can do is tell yourself that you won't let their misery hurt you any more. When they yell at you, take a deep breath and remind yourself that you are better than they treat you. You deserve better!

Something that helped me is the idea that one day I'd be able to start my own family and I made a promise to be the best parent that I could be. Now I live on my own, with my husband and daughter. I have a decent relationship with my parents, as they've both gotten therapy and have come to terms with their own problems. I can actually discuss my feelings with my father-- something I never thought I'd do. No matter how desperate a situation seems, there is hope. Just keep reminding yourself that you won't always be living with them.

Its hard to focus on getting stable when you have negativity in your life. I'm glad you reached out on these forums, so far my experiences with everyone has been a very positive one, and has helped me find a bit of stability when I was spiraling into a depression. I really hope that you find the support you need, both in life and online. Send me a message if you want, or if you ever need to talk. *hugs*